sPeNdiNg sAturDaY niGhTs iN tHe LaB!

3: 45am, Analytical Services Laboratory

*if Doc Q gets wind of this, my thesis adviser, Dr. Coo, would surely get a beating. we're not supposed to work in the lab at weekends but Dr. Coo managed to sneak us in.hehe

It's almost morning and i'm still stuck in the lab..a pathetic chemistry student working on a pathetic thesis on a pathetic saturday night.. while my boyfriend is at home texting me that it's already our 11th lunasary and while my sisses are having the sorority elections, i'm here sitting in the lab..typing a blog post?!! haha..no, my thesis partner minette relieved me of the instrument for a while so here, i'm being affected by fran's blog virus again.

i don't know if i should feel sorry for myself or get mad at all the jinxs that has been pestering my thesis since the semester began. March is three weeks away and my thesis is just half-done. sigh.. only 3 monthsd ago, i've been 95% sure i could graduate on time but with the rate my lab work is going, the percent probability of my making it to the UP ampitheater in my sablay in April is down to 45%.

i don't know how my parents would react to this. i'm their eldest and they have been wanting to attend a college graduation ceremony but it looks like i am going to fail them..big time. i should kick myself for single-handedly getting into this mess. if it were not for my "overtly active foresight", i would not be feeling this embarassed. for the past year, i have been doing a good job of convincing my mom and dad that it's all right if i don't graduate in my 4th year since i just shifted to chem on my 3rd year. however, i changed my mind last sem and told them that i'm finally graduating this year. hah! i didn't know that a big joke was coming my way! so here i am, at the middle of the night, frustrated once again that the graphite furnace atomic absorption spectrometer won't cooperate with me.

the idea of being a "doctor"--making up experimental results-- has dawned on me a thousand times already but i still have a bit of conscience in me that i refused to do it..even if it means forfeiting my chance of attending my supposed to be graduation. and if i play "doctor", the thought of my thesis adviser submitting my experimantal results to tuna companies would surely haunt me.

if i didn't join the Analytical Chemistry group, would my thesis been finished by now? i don't exactly know. it's too late to regret now. i just wish some sort of a miracle would happen. and i would be able to get out of this problem. and come April, i would be albe to join the Lightning Rally on graduation day. and come May, i would be at the RSRC reviewing for the board exam. i don't know if any of these would happen. i don't exactly know. but i wish.